Since I’m divorced, and want to develop new routines, I will attempt to resurrect this blog. I was going to jump into my AWS site, but probably shouldn’t do that in the middle of an anxiety disorder and so this WordPress site is simpler. I just felt the need to post something, I suppose to prove I still exist?
August 11, 2020—Kay Dekker
That this person died before I learned who she was; it makes me sad.
I’m migrating from Riverside County to the Eastern Sseabord, so I have dispersed the remainder of the live oak seedlings I have been growin my rig. I have planted fourteen and gave another dozen to the camp host at the Lake Skinner campground. Best i can do under time and pandemic constraints.
This is what perseverance looks like
That’s what irony looks like
This was going to be the year I got back to being a public person
AAAaaaahahahahaa hahahaaaa rofl haha
go to conventions, hahahalol
had my first ever SXSW ticket hehe
Tree Planting Organizations
Researching root gel for my seedling project.
Again, notes for reference until I sit and study.
Lareena noted during LTUE that LTUE 3 has gone obsolete. Update or replace; which of these?
That was back in 2018. Now?Weeelll, not so much. Version 4:
Conclusion: Very grateful there’s a V4. Will dive in presently.
I didn’t think it was a toolkit. Was I wrong?
It looked promising back when I investigated it, but couldn’t get it to work back then. Another try presently.
(from that page and important to know): Latest supported Unity release for EditorXR is 2018.4.12f1
We were going to pursue this, so here’s the handy link:
The “How to Be Autistic” page:
Update: Respite room went well.
The TL;DR sumup:
Do your research.
Protect your rights.
Know your methods.
Maintain your health.
Develop executive functioning.
Play to your strengths*
Pick your battles.
Try the 6B art pencil.
Herein I am organizing my notes to leave around in the LTUE 2020 respite room. That way if I get tripped up by my executive functioning issues and don’t produce a final work, at least I’ll have something up.
More specifically, how to be an autistic content creator.
One metaphor: You are a mage. You use your stock of mana to shapeshift into a neurotypical human, and also to cast spells.
You commence battle into assuring yourself that you have sufficient mana. But some of the maneuvers take more than you think. And you find yourself running out. Soon this magic system is the kind where, if you run out of mana you can continue the battle by spending your own life force. And you don’t even realize you’ve run realize that you’ve run out and converted over
Another metaphor: Treat your physiology as if it’s a high-maintenance machine. You can use DeLorean from Back to the Future, where the savantism is the flux capacitor and its PRV6 engine is the mundane but vital support systems.
Use the metaphor that suits you. Get ideas, not directives.
Basically, take your physiology, including your emotions, and get it away from your ego. And what other people think. Science it.
Speaking of Executive Function–
Questions concerning executive functioning replaced questions about religion on this year’s U.S. census. How cool is that? Because high-functioning autistics need executive functioning support and this involves more than simply buying a Franklin planner. Important as this topic is, though, I’m not diving into it during the LTUE gig.
My Favorite Tools
(I am not getting compensated for any of these shoutouts)
My particular sensitivity is noise. (Note:AC/DC is not noise. Go figure.) Sometimes I won’t even realize the ambient sound of your office complex has affected me until I find I have become grouchy enough to make a couple enemies. That’s why a sound meter is a good tool. It shows visually what I’m not perceiving consciously, especially when I’m focusing on the task at hand.
It doesn’t have to be fancy. Just something that makes sound visible. The point is to be aware and take measures before it depletes me.
My wish list includes a sound app which will vibrate when it perceives sound at the frequencies and patterns which start depleting my energy and raising my stress. The evil part of me wants this app to beep like a car alarm when it detects these noises, just to educate neurotypical people.
Just because the world is so noisy and so ignorant, I use these little lifesavers:
At least I did until I broke them from overuse.
These are a more inexpensive replacement:
I got them refurbished. Hey, being disabled is expensive.
I can get by for the day with earplugs, or in an emergency with wet toilet paper, but I find that overuse leads to ear infection.
My stim collection:
I’m doing that right now. It’s helping me to get ready for LTUE.
GeoSynth Electric piano Any freakin’ musical instrument you plop in front of me
The musical instrument I can play in public.
Food is not my religion. I engineer my diet. I tinker with chemicals and measure word output and three-dimensional visualization quality that results, in hourly and daily increments. I am a human guinea pig.
I am not posting my findings. Do the work and get Syour own.
Full of ads but I’m sorting through it to pick up information
What to put in a sensory room
Satellite notes and particulars
Pings at about 600 MS so wifi calls are dicey
When you lock to the beam, make sure it’s the same “hand” that your receiver is using. Currently looking for my allen wrench set because I just changed campgrounds and I need to set it to left hand.
Update: Can’t find it; back to writing.
Update: Got it working after I set it the wrong way, conferred with Montana tech support and got set straight. Gotta be patient with these newfangled tech things.